life times & love

it's weird because so much has gone on in the past month. and it's weird that tomorrow is the last day of the year, and i'm gonna get the question of "who are you?" for my last question of the trek. but what have i learned? i don't know, i've learned that the now, is the most important of the then and whatever the future tense is. there is so much wasted on just sitting in the moment, the amber, the fire and just contemplating on the past, and how its messed you up, or how terrible it is. whatever it was, it's gotten you to the moment that you're at now and it's the most important however negative or positive it is. the now moves us to whatever the future now is, but the thing is not to let it bother you, not for you to be worried about it, just know that the now is going to get you there.
that's alot said there.
but that's what i learned, the semester has ended, and i have started and settled in my winter break ways. but the thing is, like today, i don't want it to end. which makes everything so much worse. cause that's what is the problem, at moments like that when you realize the fire and the amber, you make the flame flutter in the quick gasp of air that you take in a sudden fear of time.
i guess that's another thing that i've learned this past month. it's been a great & insightful month and i'm happy it's part of me.