life times & love

This one was kinda hard for me, i dunno why. so i'm deciding to choose the most ridiculous place i've been.
the biggest stereotype ever in the world of stereotypes. a whole plaza of things dedicated to good ole' Mexican fun. and i went again.

One of my bad habits is not calling anybody to see how they're doing. I'm not good with relationships if you aren't in front of me. I won't call, I'll probably text every now and then, but you won't hear from me. My mom always tells me about this habit, that i need to call my family, check up on them, call my friends, make sure they're still alive and what not. But i don't, as many times as i tell myself i need to i don't. I think about them, but don't put any effort out there. And it's weird cause it seems like it doesn't harm the relationship that much, or at all. Me and Jimmy don't talk as much as we do when we're in the same city, but him being in Jacksonville and me in Jersey our bond is strong and silent. When we see each other we act like nothing happened, that we just saw each other yesterday.
But i still do need to fix that.

i want this. i would put it on a shelf in me room. and keep it there. and i want a lava lamp. just 'cause.

sometimes i get lost just trying to think of one thing. i get lost in traveling to some wondrous land that i've never been, like eastern Asia, London, Ireland, Australia, the islands. the ocean.
and that's why i consider myself an explorer that hasn't left home yet, cause in my head i feel like i've been to these places spiritually since i retain some mental picture of them from the internet or from movies (which don't always entirely show you the real thing) and store them in a box in my head labeled "future adventures". so i dunno, it sounds sorta dumb, but that's one of those things about me. that's where i go when no one's looking.

 most recent, me jon (not really a friend, but he was a cool dude i met that night) and a very very good friend katherine. good find in college life so far.
 this was like sophomore year. me, jimmy and lukas. i love these two dudes to death
last day of high school, me and chelsea. this girl has been with me through alot and vice versa. i miss this chicky very much.
can't forget this one, my c-dub family. we all hated each other at one point, but in the end, we were a family.

Kuroshio Sea - 2nd largest aquarium tank in the world - (song is Please don't go by Barcelona) from Jon Rawlinson on Vimeo.

the reason behind my name is that i want it to be my pen when i became an author and so i thought what the heck let me have that for my blogger. it doesn't help that i'm an e.e. cummings fan either. 
the story behind the URL, fishing with words, is that i wanted that to be the title of the first collection of short stories. and to not forget it i made it the URL. 
there's the story. 

i swear, without fail, this show'll make me laugh & smile till it hurts.

1. i can never do one thing at a time, i have to juggle tasks & goals or else i won't feel very productive.
2. erm, Ralph Waldo Emerson, is by far a huge inspiration to me & a reason for why i am who i am today.
3. i have a huge music span, one of the things i boast about, i dig folks from earth wind and fire, to like korn. or kid cudi to nick drake.
4. i want to do a lot of things, but i feel like i will never get them all done.
5. i contemplate all the time about conversations i want to have with folks, things i should talk about with them, and all that jazz.
6. i love art, music, movies, paintings, photography, graffiti (though some still don't consider it) theater, poetry. all walks of it. i sorta want to get my hands on it all
7. i feel like i try to make myself more interesting than i really am.
8. i love my mom, we have a great bond, she's such a great person and does alot for people & i miss seeing her everyday.
9. my friends mean the world to me
10. hmm...i like to collect random things, the one i've stuck to are quote & fortune cookie papers & movie stubs (all the way back to '03)
11. where the wild things are is by far my favorite book ever.
12. i can watch the same movie over and over again, and never get tired of it.
13. i moved from florida to jersey and go to school in manhattan.
14. i'm totally obsessed with eastern asia, i want to live there someday for a bit
15. uh, i don't know how to end this...what to say? er, i like learning? lame i know. but it is what it is.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr Blogger name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day06- Favorite super hero and why?
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why?
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them?
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot?
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag?
Day 26- What you think about your friends?
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30- Who are you?

“When you’re a little kid, you’re a little bit of everything. Artist, scientist, athlete, scholar… Sometimes it seems like growing up is the process of giving those things up. One by one. I guess we all have one thing we regret giving up. One thing we really miss that we gave up because we were too lazy or, we couldn’t stick it out or, because we were afraid.”  
The Wonder Years


[taken from goodmorningandgoodnight]

it's been officially a year since i started this whole blog, the year anniversary was like last week but who cares but me. as i've seen reading some of the stuff that i wrote last year, things have changed. i'm still the same tard girl, but my mind isn't at all in the same place as it was. i was a freshman, moved away from home, had high expectations of what my life was gonna be and right now, i'm happy with what i've got.
living in my aunt's basement, have my own car, and hopefully will be getting a job soon. my mom always tells me to realize how blessed i am with what i have right now, and i do. i'm thankful for my situation that i have. the friends that i've met, and for keeping me with a stable head. cause i could've easily gone out and lost it. i dunno what i meant by that. i think i meant to say that i could've just gone out and acted like a fool. but i'm not.
i love what i have right now. i'm in a good place right now in life, and college is going great.
i currently have this song playing over and over and over and over again in my head right now.

ever noticed that people always want to meet at the clock? there's always something with time that bothers people when they're meeting someone, like their counting down the time that they have left to love someone, or time that they're gonna kill someone. it's kinda crazy. time and all.

Dear Love,
Okay, you're a mean sucker, just point blank. How are you gonna do this to me? I mean I was ready to rid myself of any feelings for this fellow and then here you go trying to bring him back into my life? That's not fair at all, in fact it's playing dirty, and I don't roll that way. You should know this. Everyone always says love isn't easy or love will tear you apart, but I thought I had it easy when I was with him. We were just together and that's what it was. But then you go messing up his head, which makes me reconsider everything. Ugh, really, I feel like 500 Days of Summer or somethin', but less dramatic and I'm not a struggling singer, and he's not an architect. But I dunno, this whole thing just sucks. And I don't know what to do except just let it flow into whatever ocean it drains out to. And to not force anything. 
But thanks.


Sincerely, 
me.

because it's necessary.

Jam Session 2.0 from Cain Mosni on Vimeo.